Learning how to live, while trying not to die

A story about my stage 4 colon cancer journey,

growing to trust my inner voice, and how cancer became the best worst thing that ever happened to me

Fine, it’s situational depression

It’s no secret that this recovery has been way harder than my last two. And I haven’t posted about it, because frankly it’s way less fun...

Nov 17, 20193 min read

Today was a better day. We ventured out to lunch with a finely tuned plan: “We are not going to have a conversation on the way.” “Agreed;...

Oct 22, 20192 min read

I got my quesadilla today. But it came at a cost. I figured I would be fine to walk 0.2 miles to lunch. That’s only a few blocks, and we...

Oct 21, 20193 min read

I was back at MSK yesterday for chemo #18. My liver enzymes are creeping up, but Dr Kemeny watches them carefully, and I was relieved...

Sep 10, 20193 min read

I’m quickly approaching the one year anniversary of my diagnosis, and with all the annual events that mark the start of the school year,...

Sep 3, 20193 min read

We should all have a friend we can call when our iron levels are low, and we are craving escargot and a steak. When that happens to me, I...

Aug 7, 20192 min read

Whether or not to spring for a private room at MSK has been a debate between myself and Per since my first surgery. The per-night cost...

Jul 22, 20194 min read

“We are always getting ready to live, but never living.” This cautionary quip by Ralph Waldo Emerson goes all the way back to my high...

Jul 10, 20193 min read

A few weeks ago, I walked into my therapy session and spent approximately 56 minutes talking about nothing important. On minute 57, I...

Jun 4, 20193 min read

People are always asking about the kids: “How are they doing with all this?” I think this picture about sums it up. It’s the picture of...

May 16, 20192 min read

Today in therapy, we touched on the idea that my journey with cancer may be helping my family to learn and grow. A few hours later I got...

May 9, 20191 min read

But this was supposed to be an easy cycle!! I’ve realized that one of my cancer coping mechanisms is making these little deals with...

Apr 26, 20192 min read