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Learning how to live, while trying not to die
A story about my stage 4 colon cancer journey,
growing to trust my inner voice, and how cancer became the best worst thing that ever happened to me
Oct 21, 20193 min read
Surprise! Time for a taqueria meltdown
I got my quesadilla today. But it came at a cost. I figured I would be fine to walk 0.2 miles to lunch. That’s only a few blocks, and we...
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Sep 10, 20193 min read
Accidental advocates
I was back at MSK yesterday for chemo #18. My liver enzymes are creeping up, but Dr Kemeny watches them carefully, and I was relieved...
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Sep 3, 20193 min read
The earliest signs
I’m quickly approaching the one year anniversary of my diagnosis, and with all the annual events that mark the start of the school year,...
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Aug 7, 20192 min read
Appetite: my emotional leading indicator
We should all have a friend we can call when our iron levels are low, and we are craving escargot and a steak. When that happens to me, I...
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Jul 22, 20194 min read
On connection and caretaking
Whether or not to spring for a private room at MSK has been a debate between myself and Per since my first surgery. The per-night cost...
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Jul 10, 20193 min read
Living through uncertainty
“We are always getting ready to live, but never living.” This cautionary quip by Ralph Waldo Emerson goes all the way back to my high...
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Jun 4, 20193 min read
A turning point in my journey
A few weeks ago, I walked into my therapy session and spent approximately 56 minutes talking about nothing important. On minute 57, I...
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May 16, 20192 min read
The me they see
People are always asking about the kids: “How are they doing with all this?” I think this picture about sums it up. It’s the picture of...
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May 9, 20191 min read
Sure hope it's true...
Today in therapy, we touched on the idea that my journey with cancer may be helping my family to learn and grow. A few hours later I got...
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Apr 26, 20192 min read
It's not all optimism
But this was supposed to be an easy cycle!! I’ve realized that one of my cancer coping mechanisms is making these little deals with...
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Feb 21, 20192 min read
The power of interdependence
One of the mantras I adopted shortly after I started treatment was related to my decision to keep working: On my good days, I'll give...
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Dec 9, 20181 min read
Someone is wiped out
It's 8 pm, and you know who is totally wiped out? Per, who has spent a full weekend running around and taking care of all of us. We are...
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