Learning how to live, while trying not to die

A story about my stage 4 colon cancer journey,

growing to trust my inner voice, and how cancer became the best worst thing that ever happened to me

Healthy and free in 2023

Happy New Year! We’ve had a truly lovely holiday, in spite of (or possibly because of?) a few forces that conspired against our original...

Progressing beyond patient

I’ve had the opportunity to be on a few podcasts lately to share my story. I’m frustrated to find that at times it is becoming harder and...

A guest appearance

It’s not one month ago that I posted about my confidence that my future would find me—I just needed to be ready to receive. Most nights...

Throwing the bowl

It’s been a few weeks since I’ve started my experiment with Substack, and already I’ve learned a bunch. First, that it is a LOT of work...

Launch day!

Today is the day – my four-year cancerversary, and the launch of Strive for Five on Substack! I cannot believe that my clean scans...

A big week and a double ask

The week is going to be a big week! First up: scans at MSK tomorrow, with results on Wednesday—and then the launch of Strive for Five on...

Here we go!

I’ve been at the office more often recently, and I’ve been bumping into friends and colleagues whose only exposure to me has been via...

Nathan takes flight

Nathan leaves for college tomorrow. He’ll be settling in at Parsons at the New School in New York City, beginning his college career as a...

Warrior vs Withdraw

Delaney brought me back a coaster from the trip she and Jack took with their dad. It reads: inhale the good shit, exhale the bullshit....

How to Norway

On a window ledge in our kitchen is a collection of rocks. It started with one, then I noticed another, and suddenly they covered half...

Highland Park

I spent the morning of July 4th in Oslo, at the Munch Museum. After several hours, as we were preparing to leave, Delaney reminded me...

Delayed Reaction

I thought I was ok. I really did, maybe in part because I had been so crabby / bitchy in the immediate wake of our news. My bounce was...

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