Learning how to live, while trying not to die

A story about my stage 4 colon cancer journey,

growing to trust my inner voice, and how cancer became the best worst thing that ever happened to me

Nathan takes flight

Nathan leaves for college tomorrow. He’ll be settling in at Parsons at the New School in New York City, beginning his college career as a...

Aug 18, 20222 min read

I realize that my last post was full of philosophy and absent any sort of health update, so wanted to share the latest. I was at...

Aug 15, 20223 min read

Delaney brought me back a coaster from the trip she and Jack took with their dad. It reads: inhale the good shit, exhale the bullshit....

Aug 13, 20223 min read

After I was saved from Friday’s wrong train calamity by two of my favorite Starcom alums, I was able to settle into what turned out to be...

Aug 5, 20223 min read

It’s been so fun to be on the receiving end of celebratory texts - most of which ask how I am, besides being elated. And I am happy -...

Jul 30, 20225 min read

After all the pregnancy drama, I did NOT end up getting a pre-ablation ultrasound. I did however arrive to celebrity status. “Oh! You’re...

Jul 27, 20222 min read

(And also positive that my positive pregnancy test is in fact false, making it a negative.) Without sharing all the TMI details I...

Jul 25, 20222 min read

Less than a week after landing from our trip to Norway, we were back on a plane, heading to New York for my pre-op in preparation for...

Jul 23, 20222 min read

On a window ledge in our kitchen is a collection of rocks. It started with one, then I noticed another, and suddenly they covered half...

Jul 16, 20223 min read

I spent the morning of July 4th in Oslo, at the Munch Museum. After several hours, as we were preparing to leave, Delaney reminded me...

Jul 9, 20224 min read

I thought I was ok. I really did, maybe in part because I had been so crabby / bitchy in the immediate wake of our news. My bounce was...

Jul 3, 20225 min read

I’ve never been much of a Fuck Cancer type – but almost four years in, I can certainly say I understand the urge better now than I did...

Jun 24, 20224 min read