Learning how to live, while trying not to die

A story about my stage 4 colon cancer journey,

growing to trust my inner voice, and how cancer became the best worst thing that ever happened to me

Still Feeling Positive

(And also positive that my positive pregnancy test is in fact false, making it a negative.) Without sharing all the TMI details I...

False Positive

Less than a week after landing from our trip to Norway, we were back on a plane, heading to New York for my pre-op in preparation for...

How to Norway

On a window ledge in our kitchen is a collection of rocks. It started with one, then I noticed another, and suddenly they covered half...

Highland Park

I spent the morning of July 4th in Oslo, at the Munch Museum. After several hours, as we were preparing to leave, Delaney reminded me...

Delayed Reaction

I thought I was ok. I really did, maybe in part because I had been so crabby / bitchy in the immediate wake of our news. My bounce was...

Optimistic AF

I’ve never been much of a Fuck Cancer type – but almost four years in, I can certainly say I understand the urge better now than I did...

A little bad news

We got a little bad news yesterday. Gina has a small tumor in her liver. It’s right on the edge of where they did the radiation...

The longest day of the year

Leave it to us to get scans on the longest day of the year. #scanxiety Kindly send Gina stars and think good thoughts! ❤️🙏🏼⭐️

The right kind of perspective

As the world opens back up, I’m getting chances to meet more and more new people. Which means many more conversations where I find myself...

Why a book

Energy follows intent, my therapist has told me on more than one occasion. If the past few weeks are any indication, I’m finding that to...

A master class in fear

I had the most amazing day today—but for a few minutes, it looked like it was about to take a bad turn. I was standing outside the office...

Still here, bitches!

Gina’s sweater says it all. Clear Scans! NED! ❤️🙌🏼⭐️