Learning how to live, while trying not to die

A story about my stage 4 colon cancer journey,

growing to trust my inner voice, and how cancer became the best worst thing that ever happened to me

Jul 7, 20201 min read

#onbrand

On my way out of chemo today, a woman on the elevator was semi-alarmed to see me enter with my external chemo pump and my mask. To...

Jun 21, 20202 min read

New tools versus doom

I keep buying memoirs. Reading the story of others with cancer. I relate to them fully; they make me laugh in recognition—and cry, tears...

Jun 14, 20202 min read

Back on Vectibix

Waiting to hear back on scan results is the worst—and this time it took longer than most—but we finally had a tele-health conference with...

May 19, 20202 min read

For a Friend on the Arrival of Illness

For a Friend on the Arrival of Illness by John O'Donohue Now is the time of dark invitation Beyond a frontier you did not expect;...

Apr 25, 20203 min read

Finding value in being vs doing

Hi there! Checking in toward the back part of my first cycle back with a mostly positive report. It was weird to be going back into...

Apr 12, 20203 min read

Chemo during Covid

“I heard back from Dr Kemeny. She agrees that the lesions in the liver are new activity and that you should start treatment.” “Ok,” I...

Apr 6, 20201 min read

A week of reprieve

Thanks to so many of you who have dropped me a line or a treat, did a grocery run, or sent stars and love. I got a call late Friday from...

Apr 1, 20202 min read

It’s back

The two words that I’d least hoped to post here. At least, certainly not so soon—we were just starting to get used to the idea of Gina...

Mar 19, 20203 min read

Cancer, Covid, and creativity

“The world is currently experiencing what it’s like to be a cancer patient,” begins the meme. It’s not inaccurate: Try to stay healthy....

Jan 14, 20201 min read

No cancer! No chemo!

We got the most amazing news from MSK, yesterday! First, we learned from the surgical team that Gina's scan was CLEAR: No cancer...

Jan 11, 20201 min read

Busy day at MSK

Gina has a busy week ahead of her at MSK! First up, removing stents from her liver and pancreas. Hoping removal is a trend, as she would...

Jan 1, 20202 min read

Wishing you health, happiness, and just enough adventure in 2020

For years now, I’ve enjoyed the tradition of an end of year mileage run. In part because when you travel regularly, it’s nice to have...